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Thursday, 17 May 2012
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behind
whats the advantage of being behind
there is
many do not see it
its similar to how
many do not
look around when they are walking
i mean
i work at the shipyard
everytime i enter the yard
i look everywhere
i realise
we are missing out on a lot
if we do not
i noticed things
i notice that my yard
has at least 4 stray cats walking around
i notice that
my yard has a mango tree
i notice that
people that work at the yard
are actually friendly
just that
they do not smile a lot
which is
to me,
a rather sad thing
i love time alone
i like it when im with my friends
but then again
i notice something
really important
i have actually
become
my worst enemy
i may be sitting there
but there is always
a war
raging within me
Currently
Mr. Brightside
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Wednesday, 16 May 2012
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impression
have you created
a deep
enough impression on someone
that
the person
will not forget you
its like
a simple thought
turn wild
i mean
we all have friends
its just
the type
or
the number
thats all
but
have we done enough
for our group of friends
so that
they will remember you
even after
youve left?
left meaning
the point of no return
its interesting dont you think
i mean
have you ever wondered
who would think of you
after a year that you have passed
who would cry their eyes out
at your funeral
thoughts
fill my mind
thats me
i dont think anything is going to change that
nothing
at
all
Currently
The Hunger Games: Songs From District 12 And Beyond
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Tuesday, 15 May 2012
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artistic
my colleague called me
weird
but she described me as
weird in a good way
she has a friend that was weird in a bad way
not sure if i want to get into that
but thing is that
she said i was different from other guys
she described as girly
more female hormones in me.
whereas on the other hand
my other friend
said that it wasnt that
it was that i was more artistic
which ever it is
the bottom line is that im
different
from other guys and what not
so i was thinking
so what if im different
what differences does it make
i dont see anything at all
my parents dont see me in that light
they see me as if i was any other kid
im 20 this year
i keep reminding myself that
i need to really
get my act together
thats right
my act
everyone puts on an act
deep down inside
everyone just wants to stay
as kids
worry free
care free
happy
Currently
Miami 2012 (Mixed By Mync & Nicky Romero)
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14th may 2012
i usually do not do 2 post in 1 day
but
today marks something really important to me
today marks the 1st year
after my friend
sorry
my close friend
actually left us
she was really a joy to have around
talking to her was always a pleasure
i do think of her from time to time
wondering hows she doing
wondering if shes at a better place now
wondering
if she knows
i miss her...
i can still remember
what was the song that she responded to me
through twitter
i will never forget the song
theres a reason
why my twitter name has not changed since last year
malf3asant
it has a certain importance to me
memories
i used to think
i could just delete them
or may be i can
just that
i dont want to delete memories
that has her in them
i miss you krystal
to be honest?
i still blame myself
for your outcome
for that im sorry to have let you down
im sorry for being such a loser
im sorry i was not there for you
im...
sorry that i can only say this word
i feel so useless
like a wasted piece of meat
if theres a god
then he has made a mistake in taking your life
instead of mine
your value was so much more compared to mine
i hope youre at a better place now.
i really do
if youre listening,
hear this,
im really sorry
if theres any way i can make it up to you
even if it means
taking my life
trust me
i will do it
i will...
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music
music
has always been something
that has helped me in so many ways
to excel
to calm me down
to turn up the mood
to do practically anything
music has always been there
i always depend on music
no matter what happens
i can listen to my playlist
and just sort of let go
of things
that i once held so tightly
cause i realise certain things
that usually i would not notice or whatsoever
i have had this blog since like 3 years ago
in the past,
i would usually attach the song that i was listening to
while blogging
may be i should start that up again
okay
thats what i will do
starting
from today onwards
there would be a song
attached to the end of my
post
i would like to look back at these days when im
older
it would be so interesting
reading my own thoughts
from the past...
Currently
In My Mind
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